Work was a shitshow this week. I was run off my ass physically and mentally. Stupid stuff, serious stuff, sad stuff. All the stuff happened. Bosslady was on holiday. (A staycation. And she kindly called on Thursday morning for an update and TO LAUGH at my rundown of all the shit happening. Not endearing.) My … More There will not be enough wine tonight. 20/100
Whelp. Here I am again. Let’s not get into where I have been and what I have been (or have not been) doing over the last few months. Let’s just gloss over my absence. Let’s be coy and say I’ve been where most of us go during our quiet interludes. Instead, let us focus on NOW. … More Searching for Joy. 11/100
Man is this a glorious day! It’s a bluebird day! Cloudless sky, warm but moderate temperature, no oppressive humidity. Just perfect. I feel great! I went to the gym this morning and had a good workout. Afterwards, I took the dog for a long walk in the woods. We had a great time. I’m super … More Glorious danger zone
Well, here we are. Thirty days. Funny, I thought I would be just elated. Doing cartwheels. I’m not. It’s just another day. Perhaps because I kept this so close, there is no one to share the achievement with, but that was by choice. I’m okay with that. I told exactly three people about my 30 … More 30 Days
I was reading an online article the other day (and I forget what it was or what the context was or when it was or what site it was because I CAN’T SEEM TO REMEMBER ANYTHING THESE DAYS!) when a thought occurred to me: What would my life be like if I stopped trying to … More Who would I be?
Heading into the final weekend of my 30Days, I am feeling a bit reflective. I’ve noticed a lot of changes – most of them pretty subtle, but the cumulative effect is worth noting. Now, I know I haven’t reached the magic number yet, but since weekends are always the most trying, I am hoping that … More 23
Oh I SO wanted a glass of wine tonight. My mood was in the dumpster all afternoon after a conversation with a family member. There are worries/concerns that a loved one may be exhibiting signs of dementia. Distance makes being helpful a non starter. The fear for the future is sad and unsettling. Then husband … More Day22
Welcome to day 14! I cannot remember the last time I didn’t drink for two whole weeks. I am both impressed and shocked. New habits are being forged, and the itchy hour is relatively easy to manage. HOWEVER, I am in a horrible insomnia spiral and I am cranky as hell! While the mood is most … More Insomnia and Where are my pink clouds????
Things I’m good at when I’m drinking: Dancing – Not surprising Procrastinating – I take this to a whole new level when hungover Consuming large meals – aka fuckit meals Online shopping Daydreaming during conversations Things I’m good at when I’m not drinking: My job Listening Organizing Focusing Remembering – conversations, mental to-do lists, what … More Good vs Good
Being Present is often touted as one of the gifts of sobriety. This is a gift I don’t always want. I am a social worker in a long-term care home. (That’s what we’re calling nursing homes these days.) I do not call myself, nor do I consider myself, a therapist. However, I do have some … More Present